Summer is almost over . . . for me. :(


I'm honestly sad, depressed . . . disappointed that I really never got a chance to "talk" with the people I won't probably see for ONE WHOLE YEAR.

I've been completely nostalgic these past few days, looking at yearbooks, past and present. Elementary school days seemed just yesterday. I swear I have these very vivid and detailed memories from those days, from the sweater my friend was wearing and what exactly was said.

Some people I've known since kindergarten days and it's only been this year where I've actually gotten to catch up on times and actually converse with them. And yet, they're leaving . . .

Middle school . . . I've met life long friends there. I'll never forget The Math Book, first boyfriend, and first time drama. Has it really been 4-5 years since then? Have we really grown and changed that much?

There's so much I want to say to people who are leaving in a matter of days, and others who still have one month left of vacation (damn you, haha). It's really hard to say "goodbye", but I don't feel it isn't. It's kinda like the French language. "Au revoir" and "Adieu". Both terms alike in simple definition, yet so different. One meaning "I'll see you again" while the other literally means "To God". It's always going to be a "I'll see you later", but I can't help but think that I'll never will.

I haven't cried at all this summer, probably because I really haven't soaked up the fact that I'm going to be in a new environment without some of the people who are really close to me to back me up. Of course I have friends going to SJSU. Of course they'll be my new backbone when we start college. OF COURSE college will be great (right?). . .





But what I can't understand . . . is how 18 years of my life have just gone by, and it doesn't even feel like it. I am really scared for the future, but how can I not be excited too? Different people. New friends. Different . . . me.

We're about to embark on one of our most life changing experiences. Movie tagline much? But once we get situated, and once freshman year is over, we'll feel differently towards college. A much more appreciated, happy, and warm feeling most likely. Kinda like the feeling of when we started high school.

Another 4 years. Another chapter. Another life.




I just hope I don't get lost.



Oh yeah. I saw my first shooting star 2 days ago. I thought it was some bird, hahaha.

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